Un peu plus d'infos sur moi...

Un peu plus d'infos sur moi...
It's true that I don't really talk about myself.
There's a lot of things I never tell.
like how I love to write (but I never finished any stories) .
I smile a lot, and I love hugs.
But I often shy away from human contact and I don't think a lot of people get to see my real-self.
Sometimes I think I'm bipolar, but there's no proof of it. I can be really depressed and pessimistic or really happy and optimistic, my mood changes a lot.

I love Japanese and foreign tales in general.
My dream would be to leave right now and travel the world with only a backpack
I'm really shy (but I'm working on it ^^), and often like to stay on my own, listen to music, read a book, juggle, sleep, daydream, and do sports.

In a group I don't feel the urge to talk, I like to just listen to others. But I can be quite talkative when I want.

Not many people know that I like to draw
It's really hard for me to say "I love you" even though I love a lot of people,
Especially my family and my friends!

What really makes my day, is to know I made a difference,
I'll try to help if I see someone in need.

My greatest achievement as of right now, is my time spent in the Red Cross, I really learned a lot, and it made me realize that I wanted to spend my life helping people. Getting just a smile is worth everything!

I'd love to have kids one day but I'm afraid to commit,
My greatest fear is to see the ones I love die
But I'm also afraid to grow old, and/or to regret things (I already regret a lot!)

I lack of confidence, but with the right encouragement I know I can do great things. I am a very stuborn person and I don't like to be proved wrong. I also don't like to change my vision on things (with my family anyway. I should tell them how sorry I am and thank them for standing by me even when I'm a pain in the ass --" they are the best).

I'm not sure where I'll be ten years from now, but not in Belgium anyway. I don't really know if I study the right subject but it's too troublesome to change now, I'm a lazy person. I feel like I have to get good grades because my sister got really good grades. I know she wouldn't like to read this, but it's how I feel.

I don't like my looks but I learned to live with it. And I have really bad taste in clothes most of the time, but I want people to like me for myself and not for how I dress.

I love to have fun, go out and dance all night. I also love to drink, but not all the time, I can be crazy without the help of alcohol! When I was little I wanted to be a writer, but also a policeman, a fireman,a lawyer, a singer, an actrice,...

I have a bass and two guitars but I never learned how to play. I'm really fond of my tattoo and my knives collection ^^. I also have a lot of mangas.

Ellen Degeneres is the greatest. I can't live without music. I love Boy George's style from the eighties (hell, I love the eighties !)

I think I have some kind of heroic complex and it wouldn't surprise me if I got killed while trying to save someone else. I don't believe in god and war over religion seems pretty pointless and stupid to me. (War in itself is pointless. I think we will destroy the world one day)

What are my values (And I don't say I do it all, but I try):

-Respect myself because if I don't how can others respect me?
-Always speak my mind
-Never give up
-Always look out for opportunities even in sad times
-Don't think much about money, but asking myself, am I happy with the way I'm living my life?
-Live for today, don't wait for tomorrow because tomorrow may never come!
-Take care of myself (body and mind)
-Confront my mistakes but don't try to be perfect it's a waste of time
-Being happy starts by making the people I love happy
-Don't judge others and be tolerant
-Don't let others' comments bring me down, I can only be as bad as I let myself be.
-Don't try to make everyone love me that's just not possible.

If I wrote this in English it's because I have a hard time expressing myself in French, and what prompted me to write it is my joining in the AIESEC, an International Student Organization that helps you to unleash your potential. (www.aieseclln.be)

And there are still a lot of things that define who I am; but I cannot possibly say it all here. I will be amazed if people read 'till the end but that's just the way I am, I don't understand why people are interested in my life, I'm just an ordinary girl trying to make the best of her journey on this earth.
[ Ajouter un commentaire ] [ Aucun commentaire ]

# Posté le samedi 28 novembre 2009 20:17

Modifié le samedi 28 novembre 2009 20:28

How...?

How...?
[Work in Progress]

How...?

I'd like to change the world
I'd like to change MY world
A feeling of helplessness comes over me
I am so alone
How can I feel love
When all I feel is cold?

Looking for my destiny
I wonder, is there any?
I don't have any dreams
I can't even sleep at night
Feeling so small and trapped inside

How can my life matter when all I do is cry?

Sometimes I want to give up
But I'm still there, aren't I?
Wondering will my life matter without me feeling high?

They say hope is all you need
And when it goes away
You'll slip away with it

But when god doesn't exist
And death really is the end of everything
I find my hope faltering

[---]

# Posté le mercredi 16 septembre 2009 21:50

Modifié le mercredi 16 septembre 2009 22:03

Dream

Dream

# Posté le mardi 04 août 2009 10:31

My Side Of The Story - Hodges

Lyrics:

A cold wind blows
I am shivering
My body aches, as my heart is breaking
Why is life, making me hollow
Why is happiness casting me in the shadows, in the shadows
Hold on, dont turn and walk away
Save me
And I cry these words, but nobody came
I'm all alone, running scared, losing my way in the dark
I tried to get up, stand on a prayer, but I keep crashing down hard
This is my side of the story
Only my side of the story
And nobody cares, nobody's there, no one will hear
My side of the story

Emptiness its all around me, I try to catch my breath, barely surviving
I cant go on and I've come undone there's nothing left in me
Hold on, don't turn and walk away
Save me
And I cry these words, but nobody came
I'm all alone, running scared, losing my way in the dark
I tried to get up, stand on a prayer, but I keep crashing down hard
This is my side of the story
Only my burden to bear
And nobody cares, nobody's there, no one will hear

As I fall down, hold on
As I fall away
I cry these words and nobody came
I'm all alone, running scared, losing my way in the dark
I tried to get up, stand on a prayer, but I keep crashing down hard
This is my side of the story
Only my side of the story
My side of the story
Only my burden to bear
Nobody cares, nobody's there, no one will hear
My side of the story
[ Ajouter un commentaire ] [ Aucun commentaire ]

# Posté le lundi 03 août 2009 07:17