If only I could feel

If Only I Could Feel

If only I could feel, be loved
Here at night in my bed
I'm all alone, I cry, I fly
Away, away from this life

Somewhere warm, in someone's arms
Somewhere safe, in someone's arms
Is what I dream of
Every minute, every second of this life

If only I could feel, have a taste
A hug, a kiss, something real that could last
I'm cold, I'm depressed, I sink, I float
Hollow, my second name, void of any want, I am
I can't go out feeling nothing, what a shame
I should lay in the dark of my empty heart
Looking in the vague with my tearful eyes

Somewhere warm, in someone's arms
Somewhere safe, in someone's arms
Is what I dream of
Every minute, every second of this life

If only I could feel, stop dying
It's not that I'm afraid because I'm not living
But for once, I would love to be breathing
Fresh air, strange words, don't understand, they just don't care
She's not there, they know it, I know
But who is she? Just a ghost, just a show
I am but a game for them, a burden without feelings, they can't bare
They need peace, I give them war
They need time, I laugh and stay awhile

If only I could feel, stop the lies
Nothing here is real
I'm not real, I just fade
Darkness is around, she's my only friend
She likes the pain, so I give her my tears
She likes the pain, so I give her my fears
I'm nothing but a lonely child
Who stopped laughing, who stopped feeling
I'm nothing but a lonely child
Who stopped believing, who stopped smiling

Yet, I still dream every night
Somewhere warm, in someone's arms
Somewhere safe, in someone's arms
Is what I dream of
Every minute, every second of this life
If only I could feel alive